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The boyfriend is back, well, he's been back for a month now (yay) and lately life has been nothing but great, day after day. I haven't submitted anything on here for quite a while now, even my ID is badly outdated, so I think I need to get on that really soon. Severely in need of a new camera, I've been looking around but I really want something I can put a macro lens on. It's been a long time since I did any photography and I really would like to get back into it again, hopefully I can find the perfect camera I'm looking for so I can get working on my portfolio again. My best friend also got a copy of a photoshop type program that she sa

So the boyfriend left the country today (cry) on his way to a cruise around Europe. Can't say I'm totally over the moon but I do hope he enjoys the month away, as depressed as I'm feeling right now. The last few hours have felt torturously long, and I can honestly say that if the next 34 days follow in the same fashion I just might die of insanity. I don't think you really realise how much you need a person and rely on them always being around until they're gone, I knew, I just didn't quite anticipate how intensely I would miss him, especially after less than 12 hours. What a saddo I am, typing away to an online journal that no one reads ab

I spend too much time in my own head, I am aware of it, my friends are aware of it, perhaps even my family are aware of it. Sometimes it's over bearing and I can't comprehend all the thoughts clouding over in my mind, I try to shut it down, honestly I do. But lately there's been a thought completely consuming my thoughts, and I personally don't know how to react to it at this particular point in time. I don't wish to disclose precisely what it is, it feels even too personal to vent about over a generally anonymous journal/blog entry, that said it's not a bad thing, my previous thoughts and feelings that were mentioned in my previous entry h